It doesn’t seem like the holidays are getting any easier, esp this year with my brother overseas. However, I somehow thought to myself, I’ll still update this site as much as I want to, I’ll still be able to .. yadda yadda.
Alas how things stay the same, crushed under expectations both self-imposed and those put upon you by others. I was going to move, you get your brain all adjusted for that, and nope.. you’re still where you are. It’s a serious mind-fuck I’m still trying to work through.
And again, its 4am and I’m wide awake enough to feel that posting here will somehow elevate something. I doubt it.